A weak spot
I really don't know, alot in my head. Also I haven't wrote much since high school leave me alone.
I’m reliable, a self-defined trait, but one I believe in.
More so than anything, it’s due to a sound mind. One that operates on logic, but still leaves space for empathy.
A gift that I have, allowing me to navigate all life’s twists and turns without batting an eye. Any tribulation, big or small, while it may leave me puzzled at first, has never overruled my levelheadedness or my judgement.
Except for this one flaw, a weak spot.
An idea? A thought? Not sure where it classifies. An issue that seems so trivial and minuscule compared to what I’ve gone through, yet my head completely halts.
All rationale and tranquility are thrown. Every day is a fight between the logic in my head and the emotions in my heart. Each day, one wins over the other. It’s almost bipolar. But I would be lying if I said my emotions didn’t have a lead.
Why? Why do I have such a weak spot?
Is it because of the memories and comfort we once had?
Is it because it was the closest I got to a companion I believed I could rely on?
Is it because of the trust and understanding I placed before?
There was a sense of comfort, and that still remains. An inner child that was only able to rest around them. So maybe that was it?
It’s hard to say. It could be a mix of all that was said, or maybe something I still don’t grasp, or maybe I do, but my mind keeps putting up barricades.
This weak spot, I can’t find an easy solution. I wish I could understand it more.
My irrational acts, it’s not me. But I wonder if that’s what’s causing it all to fall.
It feels like I’ve been shut out, and while I dream each day that there is a way for us to put it all behind us and start anew, the current state leaves me with little hope.
A weak spot is human nature, but I didn’t think mine would appear where it did. All I can do for now is keep strong in my faith and hope that this weak spot does not break who I am.